So instead, here are my musings on balance and the lack thereof.
Observation: It’s difficult in the extreme to write when the room keeps spinning and the monitor jerks from side to side.
It’s difficult to even stay in the chair. Not because I’m feeling resistant, because I’m feeling nauseous.
Indulging in regret about missing my commitments didn’t help – it just made me frustrated on top of being nauseated.
Conclusion: Sometimes not showing up for your Product Time (aka writing) commitment is NOT about resistance. When you can’t show up for a legit reason, take PTO, Personal Time Off, with no guilt and no recriminations.
(In case you’re wondering, a legit reason is anything that would cause you to take time off from a paid position with a reasonable employer – illness, funeral, a trip to the ER, or other personal or family crisis.)
Observation: The first day I had vertigo, I tried to lay in the bathtub. I was shocked water didn’t slosh out of the tub even though it was heaving from side to side like a Spanish galleon in a typhoon. Going to the pool to swim was just not possible.
Conclusion: If you’re injured or incapacitated, your Self-care commitment has to change so you can really take of yourself. Process might also need to shift or be postponed.
Observation: I had to rearrange and reduce my Product Time targets so I could go to doctor and physical therapy appointments. Thanks to them, I could show up today.
Conclusion: Self-care doesn’t mean solo-care. When you you need help, get it as quickly as possible.
Self-care can be time-consuming. It’s worth the investment. Regular Self-care can reduce the frequency of injury or illness, but it’s not a guarantee.
Observation: Loss of balance can have a physiological cause. You can also lose your balance metaphorically for emotional or cultural causes.
Conclusion: Regardless of why you lost your balance, your first priority has to be to regaining it.
Observation: Losing your balance sucks. It also heaves, spins, whirls and jerks.
Conclusion: Having habits to ease you back into writing once the world settles down is a relief.